For Now

uplifting, for once.
soon to be disheartening, for sure,
but for now? smylez. for now. for you, for now.

journey's right.
everybody wants a thrill.
sometimes, i turn the thinking switch off.
and i just go.
go, go, go.
thrill.

but what about when they're so hard to read?
retinal failures? man, screw it.
read with your hands,
braille the shit outta that boy.

i hate the people i'm not.

[what finds you is not yours,

what leaves you is not stolen]

i'm jumping all over here, and i'm embarrassed.
not a single coherent thought today. at all.
every single day has the potential to be the greatest day of your life.

or the worst.

contents under pressure.

avoid contact with eyes.

i'm the description on the back of a bottle of raid.

you want to save me?
i'll save you first.

for now, anyways.